Bummed, very bummed - Cat Wheeler
|Feb. 11th, 2003 10:23 am Bummed, very bummed|
Am I doing something wrong? Am I not a likeable person? I have two friends, they are boyfriend and grilfriend and they live not even half a block away from me, but they do not seem to want to talk to me anymore. I used to go over there daily, then work made that hard, so I went over thereonce a week. Now, I have not been over in a couple of months. I have left messages several times. Last night, the boyfriend actually called me back. I was shocked. I had to sleep though so I asked him if I could call him in the morning. He said yes. So I called him at 8am, then 9am, and then 10am and all I got each time was the voice mail. *sighs* I did not think that I was that bad of a friend. I then sat down and thought about it. I don't really have any friends that call me or return my calls that often. I mean a few, like Aaron, Marrianne, and Tabitha are very busy, and it has always been hit and miss with them. That is part of the friendship and I don't mind that, but the others... I have no clue. I know, I am probably just feeling sorry for myself, but I can't help feel hurt. Nor can I help wondering what I have done to drive my friends away. If it were not for Chance, I would be feeling VERY lonely right now. Truth be told, even with Chance I feel a bit lonely right now. *sighs* I am going to go now before I start to cry.
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*HUGS* Well, I think it's becuse she is too mentally unstable, and he is adicted to Dark Ages of Camelot.
I can't speak for anybody else, but it was hard to keep contact with you going during the times when our schedules were at near opposites with you working two jobs. During that time, I kept my thursday night open for a while, and after a few weeks, I filled it with other things that popped up, or misc appointments, busy work, etc.
I have absolutely no problems with you, your likability, or anything else about you. When I get to see you, we usually have a blast. My trouble now is that we have switched positions. Now I am working full time, going to night school, practicing martial arts, and attempting to woo a girlfriend all while keeping up my usual gaming habbits. And now you are working only one job, and have lots of free time. :) Sometimes it just happens that way.
I certainly don't consider you less of a friend for it. I figure that things just go in cycles.
Hopefully it is the same thing for the boyfriend and girlfriend who live so close to you. Maybe they are going through some nasty times or filled up your space with busy work and forgot how much fun it was to hang out. I also subrscibe to Chance's theory that he is addicted to DAOC.
On a lighter note, Tom is no longer gaming with us (his choice) and has expressed some interest in finding a gaming group. Last I spoke to him, he had fun with you and might be up for something. If you would like, I can forward you his info.
Don't get too discouraged. In my book you're a good friend. Just one I haven't seen in a while.
|Date:||February 11th, 2003 06:46 pm (UTC)|| |
I do have to agree that schedules are crazy. It seems like the only time you're awake and able to talk, I'm at work. Otherwise you're working and I'm sleeping, or vice versa.
You have always been and WILL always be my friend, even if we can't talk much. I do care about you, hun.